Making moves and living OFF the fence
sometimes the only way to know if it’s the “right" decision is to make a move.
have you ever been on the fence about something. both sides have their pros and cons. both sides seem “right" depending on the day and time someone asks you, “what you want”. you fluctuate from this side to that side so often, that instead of choosing one and seeing what’s true, you just stay on the fence. you’re stuck on the fence for days, weeks, years..??
this is called a holding pattern and I’ve been frozen in one for the last few years, in regards to my social media accounts. i’ve been caught in a yes/no, love/hate, half in/ half out experience. both sides pulling me in a tug of war. i’d try to sit with what was true for me, but because each side of the story felt true (depending on the day), i’d end up just staying on the fence and i was there a long time. i’m not sure what consumed me more: my being on social media or my being on the fence about it.
last week I finally decided to delete it all. the only way I’ll truly know what’s right for me is by making a move.
some things in life cannot be figured out conceptually. some questions can only be answered by stepping onto the path with no map and seeing where it takes you. perhaps the things in life we are on the fence about, aren’t really the issue. sure, weighing options is practical and sound but most of us do that part naturally anyway. most of us are not reckless when making choices. most of us are very thoughtful and careful. but *some* of us are too practical. too sound. too analytical. too scared, to get it wrong or take a risk. so then the real issue becomes: our inability to act. when you live on a fence you are a spectator, looking down at life. over analyzing. and both sides have their benefits. both sides have their pluses. both sides lead you somewhere. but choosing a side is the only way to move into that some thing. choosing is the only way to know what is actually true for you. and choosing takes courage and it makes courage. choosing gives life to your life. life is messy. life is a deep learning. life is about evolution. change is required to evolve. change is required to find out what we are made of. what our purpose is. what we love. what we need. what we value.
“You have a right to experiment with your life. You will make mistakes. And they are right too.”
and we are always allowed to change our mind. to reroute. to over correct when out of alignment.
if we really want to live up to who we are meant to be, we need to be willing to make choices. to get off the fence of indecision and see what happens when we get into our life. get into the WILDnerness that life offers.
last week I deleted all my social media. this week i reinstated some of my social media. this week I know from experience what’s true for me in regards to it. this week I’m back in my body and my life.
How are you?
Love,
Annie